Monday, 10 December 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 10


oct 16...

"ishq mein toh
har cheez mitt jaati hai
beqari ban ke
humein tadpati hai
yaad yaad yaad
bas yaad reh jaati hai"


do mahine guzar chuke hain...

aksar kaha jaata hai ki
suicide tendencies khatarnaak hoti hain!
na keval jaan dene ki chaah rakhnewaale ke liye,
par uske aajoo-bajoo saare logoan ke liye bhi!

do mahine pehle...
anu ki yaadoan ko mitaane ka...
prem ke saamne sirf ek hi raasta tha...
ki wah khud hi mitt jaye!

anu ki yaadoan ka prem ke zehen mein
iss kadar pehraa chaah raha tha...
na usse kisi cheez ki fikar thi
aur na hi parwaah!

frustration ki hadh par khada tha prem...
ya toh wah neend ki goliyaan khata
ya toh phir sharaab ke nashe mein
apna gam bhulaata!

par ek aur raasta tha...

wah raasta, jispe chalkar aksar
log apne ateet ki dor ko
kamzoar karne mein kamyaab ho jaate hain...
jisse apna kar, log is baat ki puri mandoli karte hain
ke kahin se bhi unhein ek pal ki bhi phoorsat na mile...

wah raasta hai - workaholic ka!

prem ne bhi yehi kiya...
jitna bhi kaam prem ki raahoan mein aata gaya,
prem utni hi lagan se use karta gaya...
yahaan tak ke prem ne apne dostoan
ke kaam ki bhi zimmedari apne sir le li...

din bhar prem ne jee toad mehnat ki
har target se jyaada usne tarakki haasil ki

par jab bhi suraj dhalta,
raat ka kaala saaya prem ke dimag par mandraane lagta!

is khaali waqt bharne ke liye
prem ne ek night course join kiya:
"how to learn french!"

nayi bhaasha, naye log, naya mahol...
prem kuch kar guzarne ki chahat mein,
haule- haule... anu ko bhoolta gaya...

aur aaj...
do mahine baad...

prem France mein, ek badi company ke liye
interpreter ki naukri kar raha hai...

tarakki toh hui hi...
faasla badhne se duriyaan bhi badhi...
mulaakatoan ki kadi tutne se, tanhayeeyaan bhi ghati...

par...

pehla pyaar toh aakhir anmol hota hai...
bhale hi prem ke dil se anu ki yaadein
kuch dhundli ho gayi ho
par aaj bhi...
uske mann ke kisi kone mein
anu ki yaad kaayam hai!!!


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teri yaad tadpaye... teri yaad jeene ka hoasla de!!!

Thursday, 1 November 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 09


Aug 16...

"baaware naina, bhare rahe raat bhar.
soye-jaage, jaage-soye...
jaane kis baat par,
mann khush bhi hai... bechain bhi!
uljhan kaisi, din-rain ki..."

kabhi-kabhi ek rishta,
insaan ki zindagi palat ke rakh deta hai!

zindagi mein, ek insaan ke chale jaane se,
zindagi iss kadar suni ho jaati hai,
ki lagta hai jaise - jiyein toh kyun?

prem ki haalat bhi kuch aisi hi ho chali thi...

anu ke saath-saath,
ussne aur bahut kuch khoya tha!

woh raamu ki dukaan,
jahaan se roz,
ek-ek banda jaake,
imli ki chocolates churaata tha!

woh kaake-da-dhabha,
jahaan khaana khaane ke liye,
prem roz tiffin mein apni mummy se
swaadisht khaana banwaata,
aur kaake ke chotu ke saath,
exchange karta !

woh dost,
jinke saath class bunk karke,
prem filmein dekhne jaata tha!

woh bargat ka pead,
jiske neeche,
saare milke julaa jhulte the!

woh galli,
jahaan roz shyaam,
saare milke cycle pe ghumte the!

woh tanki,
jahaan raat ko saare,
jhund mein baithke,
sitaaroan ko nihaarte the!

woh building ki seedhiyaan,
jahaan der raat tak baithe,
sab gappe maarte the!

har jagah anu yaad dilaati thi!
har nazaare mein anu ki chavi basi thi!
har insaan mein anu ka saaya dikhayi deta tha!
har phool mein anu ki khushbu chupi thi!

prem, na bina anu ko yaad kiye, kahin jaa sakta tha,
na hi chup-chaap apne kamre mein baith sakta tha!
aakhir...
prem ke kamre ki sajaavat bhi toh anu ne hi ki thi!

prem iss kadar anu pe nirbhar ho chuka tha...
ki agar wah saans bhi leta,
toh anu ki yaad mein,
dil apne aap, tezi se dhadakne lagta!

raat ko prem sone ki koshish karta,
toh anu ki aawaaz prem ke kaanoan mein gunjti rehti!

aise mein tabiyat kharab na ho toh kya ho?

raat ki neend,
prem ke liye is kadar zaroori ban chuki thi,
ki ab bas...
bas ek hi raasta nazar aa raha tha!

neend ki goliyaan!!!

                - to be continued...

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......andhere ki cheekhein!!!...........

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 08


Aug 13...

"rishte naate, badhaye uljhanein..."

kya jaane kyun,
teraah taarik ashubh maani jaati hai!

peechle mahine ke teerah taarik ko,
prem ke ghar mein behes chal rahi thi,
ki saabse jyaada ashubh ghatnaa kya hoti hai?

doodh ka phatna,
seeshe ka tutna,
kaanch ka chubna,
ya the ultimate...
kaali billi kas rasta kaatna!

prem humesha se apne parivaar ka sabse suljha hua ladka raha hai!
uske saare bhai-behen usse - 'the smarty pants' karke chidhate hain!

prem ko humesha se hi gossip se chidh thi!
aur andhvishwaas se toh wah,
smokers se jyaada nafrat karta tha!

superstition ki tarah hi,
prem rakshabandhan mein bhi yakeen nahin karta tha!
aakhir bhai behen ka rishta ek hi din tak seemit kyun rakhkha jaaye?
ek naazuk sa dhaaga kya bhai-behen ke pavitra rishte ko simatt kar rakhne ke layaak tha?

par phir bhi...
apni behnoan ka mann rakhne ke liye,
prem har rakshabandhan pe,
paanch-che lifaafoan mein
sau ka ek karaara note, taiyyaar rakhta tha!

in sab lifaafoan ke dhear mein,
takiyoan ke neeche, ek kone mein,
ek cadbury celebrations ka box rakha hua tha...

prem ki uss didi ke liye...
jisne pichle chaar saaloan se,
prem ko apne sage bhai se bhi badhkar maana!
jisne apne sage bhai ko raakhi baandhne se pehle,
prem ki kalai par rakhi ka dhaaga sajaaya!
jisne, humesha, har mushkil daur mein ,
prem ko sahara diya, uska saath diya!

prem bebasi se uss celebrations ke,
dibbe ko taankta raha!
Kya aisi paristhithi mein didi se milna,
uuchit hoga?

har baar toh prem didi ke paas dauda chala jaata tha!
anu ne yeh kiya, anu ne woh kaha!
iske alaawa toh prem ke muah se kuch aur nikalta hi nahin tha!

prem ki wah didi...
joh anu aur prem ke zhagdoan mein humesha,
refree banke pissti thi!

prem ki wah didi...
joh khoon ke rishte se badhkar,
prem ke saath dil ke rishte se judi thi!

prem ki wah didi...
priya didi...

joh anu ki badi behen thi!!!


            - to be continued...

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.................................kya saare rishte khohkle hote hain?..........

Thursday, 13 September 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 07


Aug 10

"Woh shaam kuch ajeeb thi...
Yeh shaam bhi ajeeb hai.
Woh kal bhi paas paas thi...
Woh aaj bhi kareeb hai"

aaaaaccchoooooo!!!
yehi anjaam hota hai baarish mein bheegne se!
ek-do ghante hote toh phir bhi thik tha...
par... poori raat!!!
yeh paagalpan nahi toh kya hai?

garma-garam coffee ka cup haath mein liye,
kandhoan pe shawl oadhe, sir par vicks male,
prem aag ke saamne apne pair saek raha tha...

dur kahin raste se,
kisike hasne ki aawaz aa rahi thi...
prem apni jagah se utha, aur apne aap...
uss aawaz ki aor badha...

khidki se jhaank ke dekha...
toh raaste ke beech mein,
ek akeli ladki,
apni hi dhundh mein magan,
bachchi bani,
uchal-uchal ke barish mein bheeg rahi thi!

uski muskaan ekdum ek bachi jaisi thi!
prem bas dekhta hi reh gaya...

uss ladki ne halke se apni palkein uthayi...
un dono ki nazrein mili...
aur...
uss ladki ne ek pyaari si smile di...

prem waapas smile karne hi waala tha...
ke itne mein... ek lamba chauda sa ladka,
haath mein ek chaata liye,
uss ladki ki aor badha...

kuch der baad, dono haathoan mein haath daale...
coffee house ki taraf chalne lage...

ek chota sa lamha,
prem ko uss shyaam ki yaad dila gaya...
kai saaloan pehle...
jab aise hi,
ek maasoom si ladki,
raaste ke beechoan beech khadi...
apni hi dhoond mein magan,
kuch bachchoan ke saath khel rahi thi...

aur isi tarah... ek ladka...
ek chaate ke saath uski aor badha...

woh thi... prem aur anu ki....
pehli mulaakaat!!!

          - to be continued...

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.....baarish ki boondein.................

Saturday, 1 September 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 06


Aug 7...

"rona chaha... toh aansooan ne saath choad diya...
hasna chaha... toh muskuraahat dagaa de gayi..."

aaj anu ka janamdin tha!
prem raat ke baraah baje se jaag raha tha!
par ab tak, usne anu ko wish nahi kiya...

itcha toh badi thi anu ke ghar jaakar,
usse surprise karne ki...
lekin... uss din ke baad...
uski himmat hi nahi hui!

prem anu se milne ke liye,
ek mahine se tadap raha tha...
saare gile-shikwe mitaakar,
usne ek hafte pehle ko yeh faisla kar liya tha,
ki chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye...
wah anu ke janamdin pe usse zaroor milega!!

par uss din...
ek hafte pehle...
jab usne phon uthaaya...

prem hello kehne hi waala tha...
itne mein saamne se aawaaz aayi...
wah aawaaz... anu ki thi!!!

anu ro rahi thi...
uncle-aunty usse delhi bhej rahe the...
uski mama ke paas... padhai karne ke liye...
paanch saal ke liye!!!

anu se raha nahi gaya!
usse kisi bhi tarah prem ko bataana tha...
par prem...
prem ne khamoshi mein panah lee...
apne tute hue dil ke tukdoan ko samatete hue,
usne anu se kahaa:
"joh hota hai, achche ke liye hota hai... all d best...
sada khush rehna... naseeb mein hoga,
toh phir milenge..."
aur prem ne phone kaat diya...

aaj... anu ke janamdin par...
prem ne aakhir kaar,
apne andar kaid toofan ko raahat de hi di!!!
ek mahine baad...
ek mahine baad...
prem ke sabar ka baandh toot gaya!!!

ussi pahaad par baithe, jahaan woh aksar mila karte the...
prem ne apne aansuoan ke sailaab ko behne diya...

apni kismat ko bura-bhala keh,
ek ghante tak, prem ne apne naseeb ko koasa!!!
aasmaan mein dubte suraj si haalat ho gayi thi prem ki...
prem ke gamoan ka bojh to vishal ambar bhi nahi utha payaa...

aur... wah baras padaa.....

        - to be continued...

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.......................................... haal-e-dil tujhko sunaata... dil agar yeh bol paata ......................

Thursday, 16 August 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 05


Aug 1...

"ajeeb daastaan hai yeh...
kahaan shuru kahaan khatam...
yeh manzilein hain kaun si...
na woh samajh sake na hum!!!"

aaj, na jaane kyun,
subah se hi...
prem ke chehre pe ek muskurat kaayam thi...

naya mahina jo aaya tha...
prem ka favorite mahina!
tyohaaroan ka mahina...
friendship day, rakshabandhan, swatantrata diwas!
aur...
anu ke janamdin ka mahina!
is saal, anu aathaara ki hone waali thi!

itni saari taiyyari baaki thi!
prem anu ke liye surprise party jo de raha tha...
balloons kharidne the,
cake order karni thi,
phooloan ka bandobast karna tha,
khane ki list banani thi...
sab ko invites bhejne the...
hey bhagwaan!!!
anu ka gift laana baaki tha!

isi uchal kudh ke maahoal mein,
prem ko yeh yaad hi nahi raha...
ek mahina beet chuka tha,
anu se dosti tode...

na anu ne prem ko koi phone kiya tha,
na koi email, na sms,
aur nahi usse milne ki koshish ki thi...

prem aur anu ke beech mein jhagda hona,
bahut hi maamuli baat thi...
itni maamuli, ki agar wah dono,
bina jhagda kiye baat karein,
toh unke mummy-paapa ko tension ho jaati thi!

agle hafte anu ka birthday tha!
hadbadi mein, prem apni hi dhund mein,
anu ke liye card kharidne, ghar se niklaa...

prem ne bahaar kadam rakhkha hi thi...
ke achanak se...
phone bajne laga...

            - to be continued...

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....................................saath chalte chalte, kyun tum kho raah mein..................

Wednesday, 1 August 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 04

july 30...


"hazaaroan ki bheed mein bhi akela sa lage...
sab kuch hote hue bhi, kisi cheez ki kami si lage..."

bas ek din reh gaya tha mahina khatam hone ko...
dekhte hi dekhte waqt kaise beeta, pata hi nahi chala...

prem ne toh socha tha, ki anu ke bina,
wah jee hi nahi paayega...

par na jaane kab prem ko yeh lagne lagaa...
ki shaayad... anu is kaabil nahi...
shaayad... uski zindagi itni sasti nahi...
shaayad... yeh zindagi ka sirf ek mode hai...
shaayad... aage jaakar, yeh ek kissa, uske liye,
ek mahatvapurna sabak banega...

har yaad se kuch na kuch haadsaa zaroor juddaa hota hai...
kuch lamhe aisi hote hain,
jo ek dhundli tasveer ki tarah zehen mein bass jaate hain...
toh kuch lamhe aise bhi hote hain,
jo aankhoan mein nami aur hotoan pe ek halki si hasi choad jaate hain...

aaj... kuch aisa hi lamha,
prem ko sataa raha tha..
wah lamha... jo aandhi ki tarah aaya...
aur prem sukh chaein,
aapne saath udaa le gayaa...

prem ko yaad aa rahi thi woh raat ...
jab do saal pehle, raat ke dus baje,
usne anu ke darwaaze pe khatkhataaya...
aur neend bhari aankhein masalte hui,
anu ne darwaaza khola...

prem humesha se hi anu se dooriyaan banaye rakhta tha...
iss darr se, ke agar anu ko uski feelings ki bhanak bhi lag gayi,
toh prem anu ki dosti bhi kho dega...

anu chup chaap apne ghar se bahar nikli,
aur prem ka haath thaame, usse balcony mein bithaaya...
phir andar jaake coffee banayi...
aur bina ek shabd kahe, prem ke haathoan mein coffee ka mug thama diya...

halke se uske paas aake baithi,
dheere se uske kandhe par apna sir rakha...
aur yunhi ek ghanta, dono...
chup chaap... khamoshi mein baithe rahe...

prem se saha naa gayaa...
usne kaha... "mujhe maaf kardo... itni raat ko tumhein disturb kiya...
lekin, pata nahi kyun... kuch ajeeb sa lag raha tha.
ek ajeeb si ghuttan mehsoos ho rahi thi ghar pe..."

anu ne apni jhuki hui palkein uthaayi aur wah prem se kuch kehne waali thi...
ek pal ke liye, prem ki saansein tham gayi!!!
prem apni best friend ko khona nahi chahta tha...
kisi bhi keemat par, apne pyaar se zyaada, usse apni dosti pyaari thi!!!
par yeh kambakhat ghuttan!!!

anu ne sirf itna hi kaha:
"tumhein aur coffee chahiye???"

prem anu ki oar mudaa... unki nazrein mili...
prem ne socha chalo keh hi deta hoon aaj...

itne mein anu bol padi...
"tum mere sabse achche dost ho prem! main tumhein khona nahi chahti...
koi baat hai toh please mujhe bataao..."

aur achanak... prem ke muh se nikalne waale shabdh,
uske gale mein hi atak gaye...
wah jaise bhool hi gaya ki wah aaj anu se apne pyaar ka izzhaar karne waala tha!!!

prem sirf yeh keh payaa:
" bahut der ho gayi hai... mujhe chalna chahiye... "
aur muskuraahat ka mukhoata oodhe,
sannate bhare andhere mein chalte hue...
apne ghar laut gaya...

kya aaj, do saal baad,
prem ko is baat ka afsoas ho raha tha???
ki kyun uss din wah khamosh raha???
kyun uss din wah peeche hata???

zyaada se zyaada kya hota?
naa keh deti?
dosti toad deti?

wah toh waise bhi tut chuki hai!!!

aur ab... reh gayi hai thi toh bas...
beete lamhoan ki yaadein...

                - to be continued...


.................................tere bin......................

Sunday, 22 July 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 03

July 25...

"har ek muskurahat muskaan nahi hoti
nafrat ho ya mohabbat aasaan nahi hoti"

ghane andhere mein...
chup chaap, akele se ek kone mein,
apni tanhaayi mein dooba,
sir jhukaye, baitha tha prem...

saansein toh chal rahi thi,
magar jo, kuch din pehle hua...
usse yaad karke,
ab bhi kaap utht ta tha prem...

july 15 -  anu ka janamdin tha!
july 15 -  prem ka maran din ho sakta tha!

uss shyaam...
anu ki yaadon mein khoye..
prem khud ko bhi kho sakta tha...

chaand ke moah mein,
prem sitaaroan ka saath kho raha tha...

woh sitaare, jo amaavas ki raat mein bhi,
prem ka saaya bana karte the...
woh sitare, jinhein dekhkar, prem aksar socha karta...
'kash... yeh chaand asmaan mein hota hi nahi...
raat bhar centre of attraction bana rehta hai
aur mere pyaare se sitaaroan ko background artist bana deta hai!'

aaj woh hi chaand, prem ko sitaaroan se jyaada priy ho chal tha!!
aaj... anu ka nasha is kadar uspe chaya tha, ki
usse paane ki chaah mein, prem apne dostoan se dur ho raha tha...

par agar anu ko paana hi tha...
to prem na aakhir usse rishta toda hi kyun???

                - to be continued...

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.................................Phir teri yaad aayi ..............

Monday, 16 July 2012

Pyaari si Zindagi - 02

July 15...


"waqt saare ghaav bhar deta hai"

agar aisa hai... toh aaj...
do haftoan ke baad bhi
uska mann khaali-khaali sa kyun lag raha hai?
usse aisa kyun mehsoos ho raha hai ki,
usne faisla karne mein jalbaazi ki...

samundar kinare akele bethe, prem doobte hue sooraj ko nihaar raha tha...
ki achanak se uska dhyaan ek jodi ki aur badhaa...
ladki ke haath mein ek golaa tha, shayad kachi kairi?
aur ladka uske kandhoan par haath rakhe usse gudgudi karne ki koshish kar raha tha!

zahir si baat hai... usse anu ki yaad aane lagi...
uski hasi, uski aankhein, yahaan tak ki uski aawaaz bhi...

na jaane kyun aaj bhi usse raatoan ko sone nahi deti thi wah aawaaz!
na jaane kyun aaj bhi, har raat, sone se pehle...
usska ek khayaal, prem ke laboan pe halki si hasi chod jaata tha

do hafte!!!
do hafte ho gaye the uss baat ko...
na usse baat ki, na hi koi sms...

prem ka mann achanak se utaawlaa hone laga...
usne jhatt se phone uthaya aur anu ka number dhoondne lage.
phir usse yaad aaya...
ki anu ka number toh usne gusse mein delete kar diya tha!

itne saalon ka pyaar aur ek number se haar maan jaye?
anu ka number usse zubani yaad tha!
usse raha na gaya!! bechaini badhne lagi...
jhatt se usne anu ka number dial kiya...

ghanti bajne lagi...
baarish ki pehli boondein barasne lagi thi...
prem anu ki aawaaz sunne ke liye taras gaya tha.
wah apne khayaaloan mein is kadar ulajh gaya,
ki usse is baat ka dhyaan hi nahi rahi ki kab...

wah samundar ke kinare se uthkar paani ki aur badhaa,
aur kab...
wah badhtaa hi chala gayaa.....

            - to be continued...

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.................................Baatein bhool jaati hain... Yaadein yaad aati hain!!!.................

Monday, 2 July 2012

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 01

July 01...

"Har raat ek nayi subhaah layegi
khushi kabhi na kabhi toh phir muskurayegi
gam jitna chahe apna pehra jamaale
aakhir ek kiran roshni ki zaroor ayegi..."

andheri raat thi, tez baarish ki boonndein,
uske aankhon ki nami ko dhak rahi thi.
baarish mein bheegne se usse ek ajeeb sa sakoon milta tha.
maano jaise har zakham bhar raha ho,
jaise uski zindagi mein koi naya mode,
jald hi dastak dene waala ho...

ikkis saal ka prem,
gusse mein ghar se bahar nikla,
aur kise se bina kuch kahe,
apne bike ki chabi uthaye, chal pada.
zindagi mein woh aaise mukaam pe khada tha,
zahaan zindagi khud ek sazaa ban chuki thi.

bina kisi wajah usse ghutan mehsoos ho rahi thi...
woh yaadein, jinke liye woh kabhi jiyaa karta tha,
ab bojh banne lagi thi.
woh dost zinpe prem apni jaan lutata tha,
aab usse is baat ka dilaasa de rahe the,
ki zindagi kisi ek insaan ke liye nahi rukti!
iss hadh tak, ki bina kisi ka dil dukhaye,
woh kuch keh hi nahi paata tha...

har baat pe nok-jokh!!!
har cheez par paabandi!!!
har ek din, har ek lamha aise guzarta,
jaise wah apni zindagi udhaar pe jee raha ho...

hawaaon ke rukh ko badalne ki uski chaah thi!
par devdaas mann, un lamhoan ke pinjre mein kaid rehta!
chehre pe hasi ka toh sirf mukhoata tha!

aaj... ussne apne chaar saaloan ke pyaar se naata tod diya tha!!!

woh pyaar, jiski buniyaad par usne bina apni parvaah kiye,
kuch kathoar faisle kiye the...
woh pyaar, jiske bal par usne itni kaamyaabi haasil ki,
ki wah jeena hi bhool gaya tha...
woh pyaar, joh uske jeene ki wajah ban gaya tha!

bhalay hi woh pyaar... ek darfaa hi kyun na ho!!!

uska mann bechain hone lagaa...
kya usne sahi kadam uthaya tha?
kahin usne yeh faisla karne mein der toh nahi kar di?
kahin woh is wajah se kuch uttpataan na kar baithe!

koi usse hoaslaa deta ki sab thik ho jayega,
toh koi usse kehta ki usne bilkul sahi kiya!

par koi usse yeh nahi kehta...
ki woh aage kya kare???

            - to be continued....
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.................................Tanhaa dil....................