Friday, 7 August 2015

I Don't Know !

M1 & M2 are in an intense battle of words and thoughts, end of day (more precisely MONTH END), badgered from work, emotionally drained, 'Mind F@%*ed' as somebody says...

Here's a small excerpt from their tussle:

M1: I wish I could die!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I don't know.
M2: Ok.

M1: What if I jump from a cliff?
M2: If the wind too decides to be moody then nothing.
M1: Would it be easier if I just jumped into a well and never surface?
M2: What if somebody saw you and jumped along thinking it's SaO JaO?
M1: I wish I could die in solitude!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I don't know.
M2: Ok.

M1: What if I simply pack my bags, leave and never come back?
M2: Do you that desperately want to be featured in the "WANTED" column?
M1: How about I lock myself in a room and starve myself to death?
M2: Really?
M1: I wish I could die without any botheration!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I don't know.
M2: Ok.

M1: What if I take a fast train and act as if I slipped my footing and fell off?
M2: What if it happens to be a Chennai Express?
M1: I think it will be best if I swallow some pills with alcohol!
M2: Even in your last few moments you want to be high?
M1: I wish I could die without being judged!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I don't know.
M2: Ok.

M1: It would really be an achievement if I could hang myself at work?
M2: Wouldn't it be rather nice to frame a picture of yourself and gift them as a wall hanging?
M1: I think I should just crash the car at 100!
M2: What you are Micheal Schumacher now?
M1: I wish I could die without any excuses!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I don't know.
M2: Ok.

M1: Why is everything working against me? I wish I could just live in peace!
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: I.... NOTHING! Nothing indeed!

M2: I wish I could simply vanish!
M1: Neither do you have a Harry Potter's cloak, nor are you Mr. X, do NOT; and even think about conjuring up some weird concoction 'coz then I will have to invent even more ideas to end my life.
M2: What's stopping you?
M1: EVERYTHING! Oh! I don't know!!!

P.S. 
M1 = Me, when I am lost and lonely...
M2 = Me, 'coz I am the only one that knows me! 


Thursday, 3 July 2014

HUMAN NATURE

Isn't it kind of weird? The way our human behavior functions?
We are dependent on the brain for instructions, while all the while our actions are sub-consciously being controlled by the heart!

Today we are all enthusiastic and bubbly and tomorrow we discover we are midst the chaotic throes of the green eyed monster and his clan. A friendship today can become an acquaintance tomorrow and a faded torn jeans yesterday can become a style statement today. There comes a moment when you make a decision and then comes the part where you have to put that decision into execution and we get merely exhausted by the thought.

When its bright and sunny outside, we desperately pray for the showers to get rid of the unbearable heat.
But the moment there is the slightest of hint that it is going to rain, we want it to stop and accommodate our convenience while traveling.

Its not about men being able to understand women, or vice-versa. If you cannot explain a reaction, excuse yourself on account of the changing weather. If you seem confused in a situation, take the safest, easiest and quickest way out. If you seem over whelmed by emotions, blame the hormones!

Anxiously awaiting for a change to occur and during the course of the journey of the hopeless adventure, dissipating into a world of mysterious charms. Sensing the urgency of a being in a critical position and very categorically deciding it isn't yours to tackle. Making a choice based on somebody else's experience instead of venturing out on your own and taking risks. Passing judgments, making assumptions and jumping to conclusions - its all absolutely normal!

Somebody is depressed? Should you care? As long as it doesn't affect you.
Somebody is in a mess? Should you lend a helping hand? As long as they don't drag you down.
Somebody is learning the art of bottling it up? Great! go ahead and pat them on their back. You don't have to deal with sentiments any more!

Facing demons is stupidity. Mending fences is a waste of time. Relationships are materialistic. Nobody cares!

Why is it that it becomes easier to type it out on this annoyingly blank screen than vent it out to an actual human being? Because that's how human life has become - profit oriented and detached!


Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 17

June 18

"Anjaana... Kehne ko hi tha!
Mera tha woh, jo bhi tha!"

*TING TONG*

Subah ke saat baj rahe the!
Kaun ho sakta hai itni subah subah?

Aankhein mundte hue Rashi darwaze ki oar badhi.
Darwaaza khola toh wahaan koi nahi tha.
Bas door mat par ek white envelope..

Rashi ne woh envelope uthaya aur uske andar jhaanka.
Dekha toh ek parchi nikli...
Uspe likha tha:
"Tum jhalli ki jhalli hi ho!"

Ye handwriting!
Aman?

Rashi ne yahaan wahaan dekha..
Bhaag ke stairs ki aur badhi!
Na jaane kiski talaash thi usse?
Niraash hokar jab woh palat rahi thi...
Tab usse ek jhalak dikhi!

Ussi peele chaate ki...
Rashi usse aawaaz lagane hi waali thi,
Ki kisine ne usse peeche se jakad liya!
Rashi cheekh padi!!

Peeche se kisiki hasne ki aawaaz aayi.
Rashi ne mud ke dekha,
Toh woh Aman ki baahon mein thi,
Aur Aman ke peeche khadi thi,
Hassi me magan Paakhi!

                                                     ----- Hum Tumhare Hain Sanam -----

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 16

June 18 3.05AM

Dear Aman

I am really sorry for behaving like this.

Hum do saalon baad mile aur maine tumse itna rudely behave kiya.
Tumhari koi galti nahin hai. Bas mujhe Paakhi ko tumhare saath dekh ke thoda shock laga. Specially jab tumne usse tumhari "Meet my wou;d be wife" kehkar introduce kiya!

You know what! Main actually tumse kuch kehne waali thi! Do saaloan mein tumse dur rehke maine yeh realize kiya ke tum sirf mere best friend hi nahi, usse kayi zyaada ho!  Aur... Main tumse kehna chahti thi...

I love you Aman! I am sorry, shayaad ab bahut der ho gayi hai. But mujhe sab se jyaad is baat par gussa aaya... ki Paakhi ye jaanti thi!

Goodbye Aman! Aaj ke baad hum kabhi nahin milenge.

Wish you a very happy life ahead.

Rashi.

                                                                                ------- A L V I D A  !

Pyaari Si Zindagi - 15

June 17

"Jaane pehchaane se woh ajnabee..."

Do din beet chuke the...
Naa Rashi ne Aman ka phone uthaya na hi usse call back kiya

Aman paagaloan ki tarah,
Rashi ko contact karne ki koshish kar raha tha.
Do dinoan mein Rashi ke cell pe kareeban
20 missed calls aur 10messages toh the!

Rashi ne finally apna phone switch off kar diya.
Facebook pe Rashi do saal purni yaadoan ko taaza kar rahi thi!

Itne mein Aman ne usse chat pe ping kiya "Hi"

Pehle toh Rashi ne socha ki woh log out karde
Par woh aakhir kab tak bhaagegi!
Usne reply kiya: "Hey..."

"Thank god! Tumne reply toh kiya"

"Hmmm...."

"Kya hua yaar? tum us din achanak se chali gayi!
Na kuch bola aur na hi mera phone utha rahi thi!"

"Sorry, kuch kaam aa gaya tha"

"Aisa kya kaam ke tum do dino se mera phone bhi nahi utha rahi? Ek msg hi kar deti! I was worried!"

"Sorry"

"Rashi... kya hua? Tum aise kyun behave kar rahi ho?"

"Kuch nahi"

"Sab theek toh hai na"

"Haan"

"Please yaar aise mat kar. Bata toh sahi kya hua! Maine kuch galat kaha kya?"

"Nahi"

"Maine kuch galat kiya?"

"Nahi"

"Rashi..."

"Haan"

"Are you ok?"

Ek pal ke liye Rashi ne socha, kya hoga agar main usse sach bata doon?
Kya woh Paakhi ko choad ke mere paas chala aayega? Kya woh mere liye apni relationship ko daav pe lagayega?

"Nahin, I'm not"

"Bata toh sahi kya hua! Paakhi bhi bahut pareshaan hai yaar!"

Bas! uska naam hi kaafi tha!

"Listen, I gtg, I'll call you later"

"Arre par Rashi..."

Rashi ne already log out kar diya tha!

                                                 ------Kho gaye woh lamhein kahin -------